It's Thursday but it's my Friday today as we're taking tomorrow for Canada Day instead of Monday. Everyone else is taking Monday but for some retarded reason LHC has decided to take tomorrow. Max's daycare is taking tomorrow too. Stupid.
I'm taking my job here pretty seriously these days. hahaha! I have 40 more days here and then I am so donezo. I mean not even for just my beautiful year long mat leave but FOREVER. There isn't an ounce of me that feels any remorse for pulling this stunt so I can keep my 6 months of top up. I really feel like that I deserved it but Tracy (the only one here who knows we're moving to Edmonton) said that if management found out they would likely terminate me and then I wouldn't be entitled to it. So I'm just keeping my mouth shut on the subject and nod politely when RKF brings up "when you return". Whoohoohahaha (evil laugh) I just pray that none of the hundreds of people that do know we're leaving trickle this down to anyone here. Nah, won't happen.
Steve is back from his week long (basically) time away. He was away golfing with his hockey team in Grand Bend and then went to Edmonton for meetings. I didn't mind either of these trips as he really needed to get away and have some fun (work is pretty stressful) and while in Edmonton he went to the sales office for our new house and met with Stephen our sales dude. He got a site map of our lot and it looks really good. The new house is on a street just like ours now. It faces North but is closer to the main street. There's going to be a big park around the corner with a huge pond in it, Steve says for Syd to swim in. He said this morning that they are already renovating the new office for Tirecraft and TGI and it's being completely redone, inside and out. He's really excited about how different the people are that he'll be working with out there.
I know now more than ever that we have DEFINITELY made the right decision about moving to SP. I'm getting excited about it even though it is still a year away. Steve and I are both people who love change. We get excited when we move furniture around (ok, maybe that's just me). We have always done "the right thing" the predictable thing. I think we need an adventure, shake things up a bit. I always knew, but lately it has become increasing evident, that some people around us had mapped out the rest of our lives for us. These are the people who aren't dealing (at all) with us leaving. And actually I'm not surprised at who they are. But it pisses me off just the same that these are the people that we always are there for and support and yet now that we could really use some of that in return, they have decided to be the selfish, self-centred, immature people they are. Wow, that felt good to say. I don't have a need for people like that in my life.
Reason #4174983 why I love this man......
Steve handed me a bag this morning from an airport store. There was a little navy t-shirt with a moose and "Edmonton" embroidered on it and a little baby white t that matched. I pushed back the lump in my throat and said how sweet he was.
Here are some recent Max moments...
While waiting for sesamestreet.com to come up the hourglass icon was on the screen. Max excitedly said "Mommy, look! Stanley Cup! (that's our hockey boy)
Sitting on the couch watching tv Max was leaned up beside me. The baby kicked and Max felt it on his side. He said "Mommy, you poke me!" I told him I didn't that it was his baby brother or sister. He said "baby poke me?" I told him yes because they heard his voice and they know that he's their big brother and they love him. "Baby love me?" Yes I told him, they love you already. He smiled and looked up and me and said "my baby love me". (me holding back tears)
A bird built a nest in our hanging basket on our front porch. Max and I were about to water the flowers one day and before I poured the water in I saw a perfect little nest in the middle and 4 little eggs in it. The mommy bird was up on the neighbour's roof squawking away at me for touching her babies. I explained to Max was it was and that the Mommy was protecting her babies like I protect him. So needless to say the birdies and the Mommy and Daddy birdies have become part of our daily lives. Max asks us to pick him up so he can see them every day. We have watched the baby birdies hatch and grow. We've watched the Daddy birdie stand by and protect the nest too. I've had to let the beautiful flowers die at the birdies expense but it has been worth it to let Max experience this gift of nature. We had a big rain storm the other night and it was quite windy out. When leaving for daycare/work the next morning we found the hanging basket with nest intact on the grass. But no birdies to be found (thank god!) don't know if I could have dealt with that with Max right now. We hung the basket back up to see if they would come home. After a couple of days with no sign of the birdies I explained to Max that the birdie family had outgrown that nest and they needed to make a new one somewhere else. He thought about it for a bit and said "like our new house Mommy?". Yes Max just like that. (God I love this child)
